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A most exciting package

Guys, the day has finally come.

After 6 years (!!) of searching, I am finally able to eat mue pue ou nam糜配烏欖 - congee with black olives!

Three black olives in a saucer
LOOK AT THEM. hoh ngia好雅 - quite beautiful, right?

So I need to talk about these ou nam烏欖 - black olives. They're black and football shaped. They're very salty, but they don't taste anything like your black olive that you find on a pizza or a charcuterie board. And you have to get them whole, with the pit still inside.

Me holding up a single whole olive
One olive packs a lot of flavor!

Me holding up an olive that I took a bite of. You can see the pit.
I take a little bite of ou nam, and I eat it with a spoonful of mue

Back when I was little, you could easily find cans of ou nam at the Asian grocery store. But at some point, I guess they stopped shipping them to the US? When I asked my Soy Go細姑 - aunt (dad's youngest sister) about trying to find them back in 2022, she told me something like "Child! Don't waste your time! They don't sell them anymore!" BUT I KEPT LOOKING. Every time I went into an Asian grocery store, I'd look for them. Whenever strangers online posted about them, I'd respond and ask them where they got them. I basically never talked to strangers online, but I always made an exception for ou nam.

I heard a lot of crazy theories from people about why ou nam are so hard to find in the US. They're too salty and too unhealthy. They cause cancer. I don't know. The thing is, I knew they still existed somewhere. They were even featured on a Netflix documentary about Teochew food! See that? Olives were the very first episode.

But after six years of searching and not finding anything, I really thought I was going to have to travel to China just to get some ou nam. And then just a month ago, I visited my dad's family and I talked to my Soy Sim細嬸 - aunt (dad's youngest brother's wife), and she told me she's seen them at the market somewhere in California. "Why didn't you ask me?" 😅

She started searching on Weee! and she pulled up a page and showed it to me, and yeah, there it was, and they were able to deliver them to my apartment. I had never heard of Weee! before, but apparently they've existed since 2015.

So we placed an order, and it actually took over three weeks to get them delivered to me. I had honestly completely forgotten about it when a mysterious little box showed up in front of my door. I'm used to getting ou nam in a can, so I was surprised to see them in vacuum-sealed bags! Soy Go seems to think this is better though. I mean, it certainly seems a lot easier and safer to transfer these little bags than it would be to transfer cans or jars.

Five black olives in a vacuum sealed bag

Because they're so salty, they're usually eaten with mue糜 - porridge/congee. Plain mue. I know I've mentioned a few times already that I LOVED eating mue as a child, and even today, I think I could eat mue every day and not be sick of it.

It had been a while since I last made beh mue白糜 - plain ('white') congee, but the process is pretty simple. You just wash a cup of rice and add maybe 4-5 cups of water and boil that. Once it's boiling, lower the heat so it's at a simmer, and keep it cooking until it's at the consistency you like. I actually prefer my mue to be a little thicker and less jui jui水水 - watery.

An overhead shot of porridge, black olives, and cured meat

And you guys know I love lah bhah臘肉 - cured meat as well, right? When I last visited my mom's family, Gong公 - grandpa would cook mue and lah bhah and have that for lunch every day! (And you know I am more than happy to eat this for lunch every day) Lah bhah is typically made with pork belly, but he also prepares other meats in a similar way. Before I left, he made sure to give me some lah bhah to take home ❤️

Three pieces of cured meat that's been deep fried
I only cook a little bit each time, just enough for my meal

I've been having many meals of mue and ou nam and lah bhah for the past couple of weeks! I really don't ever get tired of it.

I feel like I want to try to have more of my favorite dishes from childhood. Because...can you believe ou nam is actually not my favorite thing to eat with mue? (Well, you'd know this already if you read my blog posts pretty closely) But that's a post for another day.

Three black olives in a saucer with some cured meat bits in the back


Cinnamon swirl pancakes

Prior to this entry, I had six posts tagged with "pancakes", and every single one of them has been a savory pancake. But that all changes today! Twice this week I have made your typical breakfast pancakes. In the oven. Can't be too traditional.

I remember when I first saw the recipe for cinnamon swirl oven pancakes close to a year ago, I decided I had to make it. That day. I've actually made this a lot of times in the past, but this is the first time I've taken any pictures.

A large pancake in a baking pan, with a notecard next to it, showing the recipe
It's become one of my go-to recipes!

When I made this pancake earlier in the week, I'll admit I didn't do a very good job. For some reason the batter was super lumpy (I know they say you're supposed to have lumps in it, but this had A LOT of lumps of dry flour). The batter itself was also really thin. I noticed that when I mixed the melted butter with the rest of the wet ingredients, it just solidified again.

And at first, I was just going to leave it at that. I had used up the last of my bag of all purpose flour, and I didn't want to buy another huge bag. But as I was organizing one of my kitchen cabinets, I noticed an expired bag of self rising flour that I got from one of my coworkers at the start of the pandemic.

BEST IF USED BY 1/22/19

Totally fine!

The pancake batter in the pan, before it went in the oven. There is a nice cinnamon pattern to it
Chopsticks are very versatile

The second time, it went a lot better! I actually heated the milk up to room temperature before mixing it with the rest of the ingredients, and I must have done a better job measuring because the batter was more viscous and less lumpy.

I like to double the amount of cinnamon mixture and use white sugar instead of brown for it. When I make the cinnamon swirl, it reminds me of childhood, when I often made box marble cake with my 细姑. The last step before putting the cake in the oven was to pour a chocolate mixture over the batter and run a chopstick through it to make a cool pattern.

The pancake with cinnamon swirl, right after it came out of the oven, with the recipe instructions next to it
If you look really closely, you can find the hole that I created with the chopstick

A closeup of the pancake's cinnamon swirl pattern
I was really happy with this design

These pancakes were much fluffier than my first batch! The only thing that didn't work out so well was that I ran out of vanilla, and I could only use a quarter of what the recipe called for. But that's okay. I had some expired maple syrup that I could pour on my pancakes to give it some extra sweetness.

BEST BY 1/19/19

I mean, maple syrup can't go bad that quickly, right?

A piece of pancake on a plate, with some maple syrup on the side

Despite the questionable expiration dates, it was a very tasty breakfast.


A quest for canned olives

Speaking of eating food that's way too warm for the summer, I've been making lots and lots of mue糜 - porridge, congee lately. My aunt recently sent me a bunch of heu guan魚乾 - dried fish (I'm only about 60% sure I chose the correct Chinese characters there) from Cambodia, and porridge is really the only thing I ever eat with dried fish.

Porridge, dried fish, and pickled veggies
I never introduced the new bowl I bought in my last post!

I do eat other things with porridge though. My aunt also sent me some giam chai咸菜 - pickled mustard greens. Really salty foods go great with porridge. Salty eggs, salty fish, salty and sweet Chinese sausage, salty and sweet pork floss, and salty olives. It's childhood for me. Growing up, I was a super picky eater and all I wanted to eat was porridge with salty things. I've expanded my tastes a lot since I was 5, but I still love coming back to this.

Porridge, dried fish, pickled veggies, and a hard boiled egg
These eggs are not salted. That's why I have soy sauce on the side.

While I do love salted hard boiled eggs the best, those take about a month to prepare, and I don't have that kind of patience. But I remember those salted olives just came in a can that we bought from the Asian store!

So I drove to my local Asian grocery store last week, and I looked for these canned salted olives, but the closest thing they had to that were dried olives, and I wanted the ones in a can, with the pits still in them. I then drove to an Asian store further out, which was pretty big for Pittsburgh standards, but they didn't have these olives either.

I ended up going to eight different Asian grocery stores in the area and not a single one had the olives I was looking for. One place had Mediterranean olives. Another place claimed that they sold olives, but when the lady went to her computer to check the inventory, she exclaimed, in an almost comical way, "We're sold out!" I'm not totally convinced they actually stock the canned olives at all since I didn't actually show her a picture of them >.>

Porridge, dried fish, Chinese sausage, and picked veggies
I added Chinese sausage, but I still had no olives ):

And, well, that's it. I never got my olives. I also realized that none of my Asian friends have even heard of Chinese olives, so maybe it is just that rare. (But they're out there somewhere! I know it!) I think I've also hit my quota of porridge for a while, but I'll come back to it. Next time I'm visiting family I'm definitely buying some olives to bring back.

And maybe, just maybe, I can make those salted hard boiled eggs too.


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